April Showers?---Snow!

Wow, its another snowfall for Calgary. Does not surprise me, if you wait ten minutes, you will see the sunshine. Got to love being a Calgarian! Even better, I love being a clean and sober Calgarian. This is not an easy task, but I am doing it.

I’ve now been in my new place for two weeks and things are coming along nicely. I also try to get out every day and get fresh air. I have tried going down to the Central library on several occasions and had no luck getting on the computer. I decided to try this library up in my area. It is the Village Square branch and I walked in and was able to get on a computer immediately. Woohoo!

So now I write another blog. I write not only for you, my reader, but I write for the therapeutic value of just being able to share my story. I write for me!

When I first moved into my place I can honestly say that I was scared of being alone for the first time in many years. However, I now realize that I really am not alone so long as I continue to pray to God, and to get out to meetings and meet new people. Actually, I have made friends with Angeline and her husband and they even had me over for dinner one night last week, it was fantastic. I was also introduced to a couple of their friends. The first person they introduced me too was Kristina and her adorable daughter Trinity. I will be honest and say that I was attracted to Kristina right from the first moment I saw her. However, I also realize that it was just my hormones working in overdrive. I need to focus on me and stop thinking about a relationship. I think it was just that I haven’t been with any one in some time now and feel like I need the love of someone in my life. Anyway, I need to watch my thinking, so I went and had a cold shower, lol.

The next person I was introduced to was another friend of Angeline’s and Graham’s, was a guy named Glenn. Nice guy, but really we didn’t really get a chance to talk much, he was hoping to meet with his girlfriend and she never showed up, that’s a woman for you. Maybe its a lesson for me that I don’t need one in my life right now.

In other news, I managed to get a nice entertainment unit for my place and it almost looks brand new. Its new to me. I’m actually looking forward to the 27th when I get to go pick out some more furniture from the Drop Inn Centre Furniture program. The biggest thing that I hope to get from them is a dining room table and chairs as well as a washer and dryer. Of course anything extra that I get would be a big bonus. Then again, I also have an opportunity to go to the Interfaith Furniture Store the very next day and pick out some other things that I might need. Did I ever mention to you, my reader, that I can be very resourceful. Well, now you know! My life is just getting better and better every day.

Its really because I am starting to focus more and more on my future and God willing, it will be a future back with my children. As a matter a fact, I am looking so forward to the court date for access on the 27th as well. Man, my life really is good, so long as I stay clean and sober.

Before I finish up, I wanted to mention that I have also been under the weather the last couple of days, it all started with an itchy throat and now I feel sickly. This however will not stop me from getting out and getting fresh air, and it will not stop me from going downtown tonight to help Kim, with Walking with the Homeless. This is a very important part in my recovery and it really is to me, paying it forward. I know what it is like to live in the shelter system, I was there up until just two weeks ago, so I want to help to give back my time to help those who are still struggling.

Before I go, I want to thank all my readers for your support you have shown me and I do hope that you will leave all of your encouraging comments as you have done in the past. You have been a big part in my recovery and I thank you so very much.

Enjoy the weather
Stay warm
Your writer,
Tim Barber