Hello to all my readers,, I am somewhat surprised to see only one comment on my last blog. I surely hope that I still have followers that are following my blog. I have just recently become a member of facebook and now post all my blogs to their as well as here.
I am doing very well lately and am trying my very best to stay away from drugs and alcohol…. This is going good… I have not used in some time and want to continue my clean ways.
I thank all those who have been a very big support to me and hope you will continue to be support in my battle of life.
I talked with my lawyer recently, but still I have not heard anything other then he is still trying to locate the mother,,, It seems to me that it is dragging on… Hopefully this will be the year that I finally get to see my children once again… I can only keep praying that it is.
Lately I have been spending a lot of time to myself and I am doing a lot of reading.. I also have finished some more pages of my book,,, this is a good thing.
Just yesterday I was out walking around trying to enjoy the weather (tough, when it is cold) I found myself thinking about where my life is going,, I really don’t know sometimes but I feel as though God is guiding me in the right direction.
I am also starting to realize that there is so many people out there that can be supportive with kind words and just plain compassion,,, I encourage you to continue with your support not only for me but for others that are having a rough go of it.. A simple smile can make a world of difference to someone who might need just that at any given moment…
Todays blog is just a big thank you to all that continue to read ,,, I know you all want the world to be a better place and so do I. I love you all. God bless!
Tim Barber
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Monday, January 3, 2011
Happy New Year?
Hello all, and Happy New Year.
I am hoping to have a better year, and I plan on doing something a little different this year in regards to my blog. I call it my blog because I am still the lone homeless writer continuing to post blogs.
I was recently staying in the mental short stay unit at the Peter Lougheed Hospital where I received some counsel due to some problems I was having. I want to thank the staff their as they were very helpful and professional in there care of all patients on the unit.
This holiday season was not easy for me to deal with and it is mostly because I miss my family but mostly I just miss my kids.
For all the readers that have been following my blog, you will know that I have been having problems with my addiction and I know that I will always be an addict but I also know it is my choice if I use or continue to stay clean. Thankfully, I am going on ten days clean and trying my best to continue this way.
I would also like to take this time to thank three wonderful ladies who have been thinking about me when i was in hospital. They are Kim, Holly and Carol. Thank you for your genuine kindness and compassion. I also know that there are lots of people that do have me in there prayers and I do thank each and every one of you as well.
I am hoping to be able to start doing things in my life that make me a little happier in life. I cant say exactly what it is I will do but I do want to find something. Right now I enjoy writing for an audience and i also have started continuing with my book once again.
I would also like to give all my readers a chance to read the first 70 pages of my book. What i am offering you is an opportunity to know about my life growing up. I can tell you that you might not like some of the real people that were a part of my life but it is all true and I invite you to email me for a copy. My email address is tjwbarber@hotmail.com I would also ask that if you want a copy of this book, that you leave a donation that will go towards me getting out of my homeless situation. No donation will go towards drugs or alcohol. That is a promise! If you are interested please email and I would prefer to give you the book in person.
I really want to turn my life around and that is why I have applied to go into a new treatment program as well as a concurrent disorder program in Claresholm. I am hoping that I will be able to get into these programs before the end of the month. I will also continue to update all of you on my life whether it is good or bad. I honestly believe that I can change and become a better person. It means a great deal to me to be able to write and if ever I needed the support of others, it is now. I don't want to waste my time with my addiction anymore, I'm now 43 and going on 44 in a couple of months and I have absolutely nothing in life. Well, actually I have two beautiful children and I want to see them more then anything. I know that if I continue to stay clean, it can become reality and I will not lose hope anymore.
I would also like to take this time to let you all know that I am currently trying to get on facebook and post my blogs on there as well as on this blog along with pictures of my children and other things, hopefully it will be soon.
For now, I would like to encourage you all once again to continue to follow my blogs and to invite a friend or family member to follow as well. I look forward to writing my next blog.
I would like to end on something that Jewel sings from her song Hands:
If I could tell the world just one thing, it would be, were all OK, not to worry, because worry is wasteful and useless in times like these, i wont be made useless, wont be made idle with despair.
I just thought i would share that with you. Her music has always made me feel better and for all those that have heard her music, you know why.
I still remember when I first heard her voice, it was like an angel singing to me and to me alone.
Thank you all for reading my blog, i will blog again soon.
You, My Reader, are my support
Tim Barber
Not feeling so lonely anymore.
I am hoping to have a better year, and I plan on doing something a little different this year in regards to my blog. I call it my blog because I am still the lone homeless writer continuing to post blogs.
I was recently staying in the mental short stay unit at the Peter Lougheed Hospital where I received some counsel due to some problems I was having. I want to thank the staff their as they were very helpful and professional in there care of all patients on the unit.
This holiday season was not easy for me to deal with and it is mostly because I miss my family but mostly I just miss my kids.
For all the readers that have been following my blog, you will know that I have been having problems with my addiction and I know that I will always be an addict but I also know it is my choice if I use or continue to stay clean. Thankfully, I am going on ten days clean and trying my best to continue this way.
I would also like to take this time to thank three wonderful ladies who have been thinking about me when i was in hospital. They are Kim, Holly and Carol. Thank you for your genuine kindness and compassion. I also know that there are lots of people that do have me in there prayers and I do thank each and every one of you as well.
I am hoping to be able to start doing things in my life that make me a little happier in life. I cant say exactly what it is I will do but I do want to find something. Right now I enjoy writing for an audience and i also have started continuing with my book once again.
I would also like to give all my readers a chance to read the first 70 pages of my book. What i am offering you is an opportunity to know about my life growing up. I can tell you that you might not like some of the real people that were a part of my life but it is all true and I invite you to email me for a copy. My email address is tjwbarber@hotmail.com I would also ask that if you want a copy of this book, that you leave a donation that will go towards me getting out of my homeless situation. No donation will go towards drugs or alcohol. That is a promise! If you are interested please email and I would prefer to give you the book in person.
I really want to turn my life around and that is why I have applied to go into a new treatment program as well as a concurrent disorder program in Claresholm. I am hoping that I will be able to get into these programs before the end of the month. I will also continue to update all of you on my life whether it is good or bad. I honestly believe that I can change and become a better person. It means a great deal to me to be able to write and if ever I needed the support of others, it is now. I don't want to waste my time with my addiction anymore, I'm now 43 and going on 44 in a couple of months and I have absolutely nothing in life. Well, actually I have two beautiful children and I want to see them more then anything. I know that if I continue to stay clean, it can become reality and I will not lose hope anymore.
I would also like to take this time to let you all know that I am currently trying to get on facebook and post my blogs on there as well as on this blog along with pictures of my children and other things, hopefully it will be soon.
For now, I would like to encourage you all once again to continue to follow my blogs and to invite a friend or family member to follow as well. I look forward to writing my next blog.
I would like to end on something that Jewel sings from her song Hands:
If I could tell the world just one thing, it would be, were all OK, not to worry, because worry is wasteful and useless in times like these, i wont be made useless, wont be made idle with despair.
I just thought i would share that with you. Her music has always made me feel better and for all those that have heard her music, you know why.
I still remember when I first heard her voice, it was like an angel singing to me and to me alone.
Thank you all for reading my blog, i will blog again soon.
You, My Reader, are my support
Tim Barber
Not feeling so lonely anymore.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Christmas Blues
How are you? I am doing as good as I possibly can. I really don't have a lot to say today, but I still thought it best to write a blog about how things are going.
First of all, I haven't used in the last week. I think its more or less because i haven't really been feeling all that well, also its because i have been a little depressed.
Christmas is a time of year that is supposed to be about family in my opinion, and i don't have any of my family around to share the holidays with. I miss being a part of a family and i would say that my only wish for this season is to find out what the hell is going on with my children.
I actually hate thinking about them because it depresses me that they are not a part of my life and i wonder whether they think of me at all. It may not mean much, but I do hope they have a very merry Christmas.
Lately I seem to be tired all the time and very lazy. Its almost as though i have already given up on this fight in my life. I really don't have the energy that i had up until just a couple of months ago. My whole world seems to be about just making it through another day.
I would like to quickly wish all of my followers a very merry Christmas and happy new year. I hope that i will be able to continue writing these blogs. Actually it is just a matter of time before i leave Calgary, i am just getting tired of this person i have become and plan on moving somewhere where no one knows of me and maybe i can try a new life that i can be a better person. The truth is, i don't think i am a good person, there are things in my life that i am not proud of. Basically, i am sick and tired of putting on a happy face, when deep down inside i feel a lot of pain. Not to mention that i have feelings of anger, confusion and shame.
I actually hope that an angel will appear and guide me into a new year in which i can find some happiness, that's all i ever really wanted in life, to be happy every day. Really, I don't think that its too much to ask. Is it?
Ive really enjoyed writing for you, my reader, and hopefully this season will be over soon and I can try and get on with a better life.
I want to say sorry if i seem a little down but i cant lie and say that everything is great when its not.
Again, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Homeless
Depressed
Alone
Hopefully, I will talk to you next year.
Tim Barber
First of all, I haven't used in the last week. I think its more or less because i haven't really been feeling all that well, also its because i have been a little depressed.
Christmas is a time of year that is supposed to be about family in my opinion, and i don't have any of my family around to share the holidays with. I miss being a part of a family and i would say that my only wish for this season is to find out what the hell is going on with my children.
I actually hate thinking about them because it depresses me that they are not a part of my life and i wonder whether they think of me at all. It may not mean much, but I do hope they have a very merry Christmas.
Lately I seem to be tired all the time and very lazy. Its almost as though i have already given up on this fight in my life. I really don't have the energy that i had up until just a couple of months ago. My whole world seems to be about just making it through another day.
I would like to quickly wish all of my followers a very merry Christmas and happy new year. I hope that i will be able to continue writing these blogs. Actually it is just a matter of time before i leave Calgary, i am just getting tired of this person i have become and plan on moving somewhere where no one knows of me and maybe i can try a new life that i can be a better person. The truth is, i don't think i am a good person, there are things in my life that i am not proud of. Basically, i am sick and tired of putting on a happy face, when deep down inside i feel a lot of pain. Not to mention that i have feelings of anger, confusion and shame.
I actually hope that an angel will appear and guide me into a new year in which i can find some happiness, that's all i ever really wanted in life, to be happy every day. Really, I don't think that its too much to ask. Is it?
Ive really enjoyed writing for you, my reader, and hopefully this season will be over soon and I can try and get on with a better life.
I want to say sorry if i seem a little down but i cant lie and say that everything is great when its not.
Again, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Homeless
Depressed
Alone
Hopefully, I will talk to you next year.
Tim Barber
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Homeless Winter Part 2
Since my last blog I have calmed down some. I wont tell you that i used because I haven't. Actually i am very pissed off at myself and hope to continue to consider my whole life in a different perspective. I want to try and become a functioning member of this society. Isn't that what people want . Its definitely what i want. I am not a perfect person and i don't think i could ever accomplish a feat that high. I can barely make it a day without thinking about drugs or alcohol. I know i am not perfect but i want to be the better version of what i have been. Actually, i just want to be able to enjoy some part of my life. i enjoy writing for example.
I want to find companionship. Its been a long time since i have been in a serious relationship. being homeless doesn't seem to help much. Its actually interesting to see how many homeless men and women have a companion. its not like I'm really looking, whats more important to me is getting my children back in my life. I always have to remember that. Problem with that is that i can barely take care of myself, but I'm working on it.
Today i am trying to focus my attention more towards doing things that will be productive for my life and help me get stronger. That's why i write to you today. I am feeling much better and i hope to continue to be less cranky when it comes to blogging. Thank you for letting me share my life with you.
I will end by telling you that i found a different job and its indoors. I hope to write you soon and let you know how things are going. Sometimes i get scared about what the future will bring and i really outta start worrying more about my here and now. WHAT!! Me worry!
That's all i have to say. I hope that you will forgive me for my last blog but it is a big part of my life. I enjoy writing these blogs and hope you will continue to follow.
All the best
Stay warm
Tim Barber
Homeless
I want to find companionship. Its been a long time since i have been in a serious relationship. being homeless doesn't seem to help much. Its actually interesting to see how many homeless men and women have a companion. its not like I'm really looking, whats more important to me is getting my children back in my life. I always have to remember that. Problem with that is that i can barely take care of myself, but I'm working on it.
Today i am trying to focus my attention more towards doing things that will be productive for my life and help me get stronger. That's why i write to you today. I am feeling much better and i hope to continue to be less cranky when it comes to blogging. Thank you for letting me share my life with you.
I will end by telling you that i found a different job and its indoors. I hope to write you soon and let you know how things are going. Sometimes i get scared about what the future will bring and i really outta start worrying more about my here and now. WHAT!! Me worry!
That's all i have to say. I hope that you will forgive me for my last blog but it is a big part of my life. I enjoy writing these blogs and hope you will continue to follow.
All the best
Stay warm
Tim Barber
Homeless
Monday, November 29, 2010
Homeless Winter
Here I am stuck in the same old rut. I think you know where I'm going with this. I will be straight up honest and tell you, I used. Its as simple as that and I truly am getting sick, sick and tired of my addiction. Sometimes I truly challenge that notion though. I believe that I also have some sort of fucked up brain.
Now that Ive got that off my back, lets just talk about what its been like for me lately.
I was doing really well up until Thursday night. Then for some reason which I am still trying to figure out happened. This probably doesn’t make sense and I hope to reach out and grab your attention, just bare with me.
I went for a walk tonight despite the very frigid weather. I needed to think. Its actually something in my life Ive always enjoyed doing. Just taking a walk and thinking about where my is leading. I sometimes even talk out loud like I'm having a conversation with myself. Don’t worry, I'm not crazy. At least I hope not. I think about all sorts of things, I basically let my mind wonder where it may.
While out on my walk I got to thinking about my children and about whats happening in their life. I wonder what its like to be a father to an 8 and 9 year old. I started thinking about all the interesting things they may be doing. I wonder what thy read, what they like, what they like to do and pretty well anything about them. Its been way to long. Then I started wondering what they would think about a dad that’s gets fucked up on crack. They would probably think dads a loser, and the yd be right. I start wondering how my life could have been if I still had the kids in my life.
Some days its very difficult to find any motivation to actually get out and do something. I'm actually having a difficult time trying to stay focused on this newest blog that you are currently reading. For me, writing these blogs relieves some of the tension that I have built up. In other words, its very therapeutic and that’s why I continue to write them.
Thursday i had 160$ by four o'clock in the afternoon and by 7 AM the next morning, I had barely enough to buy a coffee, but I still had a half pack of smokes. WooHoo!!
Crack will take every penny out of your pocket, quick. What the fuck is my problem? I so want to get my life turned around but I still don’t learn. I'm getting a lot frustrated with my way of thinking and living like I do, I'm sick of it. Why oh why do I put myself through such crap. I'm not trying to beat up on myself, I just want to try and find answers, its that simple.
The answers will have to come from within me. It also helps when I have support. That’s why you, my reader, are a very instrumental part in my journey. Right now I'm just stuck in the snow, so to say.
Wow, trying to stay focused but mind wandering. Actually listening to Jewel right now. She has a very soothing voice and I really like her music. Its hard to believe that she was once homeless. OK, gotta focus, gotta get back on track.
Why do I feel so blue, yet I feel a glimpse of hope. I'm actually almost crying and I really cant understand why sometimes I just get lost in emotional part of my brain, I don’t know how to explain it. Like I said, maybe I am crazy. NOT!
This may seem all fucked up to you, but it is now a week later and i really want to try and finish this blog and just get on with my miserable life.
OK, so i am being hard on myself and i think that it is a long time coming. I am not going to feel sorry for myself. I live a crazy life and i honestly wish it would end soon! By the way, i am not kidding. I really don't want to deal with anything anymore and hope that something gives. If something doesn't change soon, i will be just a another homeless memory that will be gone from your thought.
I no that i sound a little confused and that's OK because i really don't give a flying rats ass if anybody leaves comments or whatever anymore.
I have decided that i am going to start worrying about me and me only. No more thoughts of kids, no more worrying about what my day will bring, i am totally shutting down and am just going to try and get through another miserable winter in Calgary.
For all those that think i can beat this addiction, i am truly sorry but i cant, try and stop it. I am hooked and i don't think there is anything i can do to stop it, yet i keep living. WHY?? i feel like i have already died and i am already in Hell. That is the way it feels. Will i ever get out of this hell. I hope so. But i doubt it. i don't have the strength.
Where is my angel?
Where is my life?
What have i become?
Do i really deserve to live?
Does anyone care?
Do I care?
Do my kids even know i exist?
Would they care?
These are my remarks and i will not take them back!
Might talk to you soon, i will see!
Tim Barber
Homeless in Calgary
Now that Ive got that off my back, lets just talk about what its been like for me lately.
I was doing really well up until Thursday night. Then for some reason which I am still trying to figure out happened. This probably doesn’t make sense and I hope to reach out and grab your attention, just bare with me.
I went for a walk tonight despite the very frigid weather. I needed to think. Its actually something in my life Ive always enjoyed doing. Just taking a walk and thinking about where my is leading. I sometimes even talk out loud like I'm having a conversation with myself. Don’t worry, I'm not crazy. At least I hope not. I think about all sorts of things, I basically let my mind wonder where it may.
While out on my walk I got to thinking about my children and about whats happening in their life. I wonder what its like to be a father to an 8 and 9 year old. I started thinking about all the interesting things they may be doing. I wonder what thy read, what they like, what they like to do and pretty well anything about them. Its been way to long. Then I started wondering what they would think about a dad that’s gets fucked up on crack. They would probably think dads a loser, and the yd be right. I start wondering how my life could have been if I still had the kids in my life.
Some days its very difficult to find any motivation to actually get out and do something. I'm actually having a difficult time trying to stay focused on this newest blog that you are currently reading. For me, writing these blogs relieves some of the tension that I have built up. In other words, its very therapeutic and that’s why I continue to write them.
Thursday i had 160$ by four o'clock in the afternoon and by 7 AM the next morning, I had barely enough to buy a coffee, but I still had a half pack of smokes. WooHoo!!
Crack will take every penny out of your pocket, quick. What the fuck is my problem? I so want to get my life turned around but I still don’t learn. I'm getting a lot frustrated with my way of thinking and living like I do, I'm sick of it. Why oh why do I put myself through such crap. I'm not trying to beat up on myself, I just want to try and find answers, its that simple.
The answers will have to come from within me. It also helps when I have support. That’s why you, my reader, are a very instrumental part in my journey. Right now I'm just stuck in the snow, so to say.
Wow, trying to stay focused but mind wandering. Actually listening to Jewel right now. She has a very soothing voice and I really like her music. Its hard to believe that she was once homeless. OK, gotta focus, gotta get back on track.
Why do I feel so blue, yet I feel a glimpse of hope. I'm actually almost crying and I really cant understand why sometimes I just get lost in emotional part of my brain, I don’t know how to explain it. Like I said, maybe I am crazy. NOT!
This may seem all fucked up to you, but it is now a week later and i really want to try and finish this blog and just get on with my miserable life.
OK, so i am being hard on myself and i think that it is a long time coming. I am not going to feel sorry for myself. I live a crazy life and i honestly wish it would end soon! By the way, i am not kidding. I really don't want to deal with anything anymore and hope that something gives. If something doesn't change soon, i will be just a another homeless memory that will be gone from your thought.
I no that i sound a little confused and that's OK because i really don't give a flying rats ass if anybody leaves comments or whatever anymore.
I have decided that i am going to start worrying about me and me only. No more thoughts of kids, no more worrying about what my day will bring, i am totally shutting down and am just going to try and get through another miserable winter in Calgary.
For all those that think i can beat this addiction, i am truly sorry but i cant, try and stop it. I am hooked and i don't think there is anything i can do to stop it, yet i keep living. WHY?? i feel like i have already died and i am already in Hell. That is the way it feels. Will i ever get out of this hell. I hope so. But i doubt it. i don't have the strength.
Where is my angel?
Where is my life?
What have i become?
Do i really deserve to live?
Does anyone care?
Do I care?
Do my kids even know i exist?
Would they care?
These are my remarks and i will not take them back!
Might talk to you soon, i will see!
Tim Barber
Homeless in Calgary
Monday, November 8, 2010
You, My Reader, Are Incredible
Hello to all my followers, I am doing very well and most important, I am staying clean and sober. Work is also going well and I am managing to make it every day with the help of my network of support.
It really is incredible to have such wonderful support from each and every one of you. I do hope you will continue to carry the message and bring me more followers as it brings me great hope for my future. I feel an incredible bond between you, my reader and myself.Just seeing all the wonderful comments that have been left on my blogs keeps me strong and willing to go yet another day without the use of drugs or alcohol.
I need to also send out a big thank you to Kim with walking with the homeless, she is my inspiration to help other people who are homeless. The work she does is incredible and i only wish i could be half the wonderful person she has become.
I have an incredible journey yet to come in my life and I tell you this, I look forward to each and every day as a new and improved version of myself. I actually already feel like a new person. I think it because I am really focused on keeping this blog alive and well and hope that you will always be a part of my journey. I have the strength of all of you and that is what keeps me going strong.
I really hope that by the end of the week I may be able to post the pictures of my children from when I last saw them. They are incredibly beautiful kids and they have my great looks. lol
Anyway, I am tired and need to go back to the shelter to have my dinner and have a nice warm shower, read and then off to bed for another day of work tomorrow.
I must say one last thing. I am enjoying having a routine in my life once again. It really is about time. Time for me to continue my change, for the better
Thanks for listening.
Don't be afraid to be the very best version of yourself.
It really is rewarding.
Hope, Love, Compassion (The New Me)
Tim Barber
It really is incredible to have such wonderful support from each and every one of you. I do hope you will continue to carry the message and bring me more followers as it brings me great hope for my future. I feel an incredible bond between you, my reader and myself.Just seeing all the wonderful comments that have been left on my blogs keeps me strong and willing to go yet another day without the use of drugs or alcohol.
I need to also send out a big thank you to Kim with walking with the homeless, she is my inspiration to help other people who are homeless. The work she does is incredible and i only wish i could be half the wonderful person she has become.
I have an incredible journey yet to come in my life and I tell you this, I look forward to each and every day as a new and improved version of myself. I actually already feel like a new person. I think it because I am really focused on keeping this blog alive and well and hope that you will always be a part of my journey. I have the strength of all of you and that is what keeps me going strong.
I really hope that by the end of the week I may be able to post the pictures of my children from when I last saw them. They are incredibly beautiful kids and they have my great looks. lol
Anyway, I am tired and need to go back to the shelter to have my dinner and have a nice warm shower, read and then off to bed for another day of work tomorrow.
I must say one last thing. I am enjoying having a routine in my life once again. It really is about time. Time for me to continue my change, for the better
Thanks for listening.
Don't be afraid to be the very best version of yourself.
It really is rewarding.
Hope, Love, Compassion (The New Me)
Tim Barber
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
WOW
Hello all. I want to thank all my followers for reaching out, I am very impressed with all your comments and I thank you dearly. However, this must continue. What I mean to say is, I want you to continue to tell your friends and family and make sure that hey tell there friends and family and so on and so on and, well you get the point.
I had a great day at work today and was looking so forward to getting to the library to check out all my comments and new followers i received. I was totally blown away when I seen that I now have 50 followers. That is 15 new followers in just one day. Again, WOW!
I am actually working for West Point Roofers and it is a labour intensive job but the boss guy seems to like my work and it sounds like I will be around with this company for some time.
The biggest problem I am going to have is trying to make it till my first pay. Which happens to be next Friday. If by chance any one might have either some work that needs done over the weekend or some bus tickets to help me get through it would be greatly appreciated. I will leave my email address and the phone number where you can leave a message at the end of this blog.
By the way, I did not use for the last 2 days and this is all due to you, my reader. Again I thank you. I actually got offered to smoke a joint today and I said No. Can you believe it. I actually said NO! I feel so good about the way my life is going and I think that I am going to make a big difference. I promise to continue to be strong and I encourage you to continue to leave comments as it makes me even stronger.
Also, I actually am gaining happiness in my life, it is so nice to actually be able to smile when I see all the lovely comments on my blog, please keep it up.
Hopefully within a week or two I will be able to post a picture of my children on my blog for each of you to see. I am hoping to have them scanned and then you can see what I am fighting for. What I long to see once again. It is actually a picture of when I last saw them when they were 4 and 5. For those of you that don't know, my children's names are Tyler and Destiny. Oh how I miss them so.
I am actually really tired right now and I am going back to the shelter to take a shower, read a little and get a good night sleep, so I can be refreshed for tomorrow.
I also would like to encourage you all to go back and read some of my other blogs to get a better understanding of me. I am trying to continue with my autobiography and God willing, I will
Regaining Happiness
I feel the Love
Thank you one and all,
Tim Barber
Homeless and filled with Hope
PS Have you done something nice today for a homeless person?
I had a great day at work today and was looking so forward to getting to the library to check out all my comments and new followers i received. I was totally blown away when I seen that I now have 50 followers. That is 15 new followers in just one day. Again, WOW!
I am actually working for West Point Roofers and it is a labour intensive job but the boss guy seems to like my work and it sounds like I will be around with this company for some time.
The biggest problem I am going to have is trying to make it till my first pay. Which happens to be next Friday. If by chance any one might have either some work that needs done over the weekend or some bus tickets to help me get through it would be greatly appreciated. I will leave my email address and the phone number where you can leave a message at the end of this blog.
By the way, I did not use for the last 2 days and this is all due to you, my reader. Again I thank you. I actually got offered to smoke a joint today and I said No. Can you believe it. I actually said NO! I feel so good about the way my life is going and I think that I am going to make a big difference. I promise to continue to be strong and I encourage you to continue to leave comments as it makes me even stronger.
Also, I actually am gaining happiness in my life, it is so nice to actually be able to smile when I see all the lovely comments on my blog, please keep it up.
Hopefully within a week or two I will be able to post a picture of my children on my blog for each of you to see. I am hoping to have them scanned and then you can see what I am fighting for. What I long to see once again. It is actually a picture of when I last saw them when they were 4 and 5. For those of you that don't know, my children's names are Tyler and Destiny. Oh how I miss them so.
I am actually really tired right now and I am going back to the shelter to take a shower, read a little and get a good night sleep, so I can be refreshed for tomorrow.
I also would like to encourage you all to go back and read some of my other blogs to get a better understanding of me. I am trying to continue with my autobiography and God willing, I will
Regaining Happiness
I feel the Love
Thank you one and all,
Tim Barber
Homeless and filled with Hope
PS Have you done something nice today for a homeless person?
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